Still Paying

Okay, so yesterday was a hard day to post. I had a long day at work and it was late when I got to writing so I didn't have much time. Another 12 hour day today and here I am at 9:30 pm trying to write. Despite how long and busy my day was I actualy managed to stay on plan. Although, I did only get six servings of protein versus the seven I'm supposed to have. I managed to get all of my water, both sets of suppliments and I kept my carbs at 13. I've been really thirsty lately. I'm not sure if it's my body going back into ketosis or if it's due to my environment. I'm back to work after the Christmas break and the family I work for keeps their house much warmer than we keep ours.

I was disappointed to learn today that I calculated my weight-loss incorrectly. To find that I've lost 12 lbs versus the 13+ I thought I had, combined with my mistake of eating three cake pops yesterday, for a total of 90 carbs, really made me think. Since I began my plan I haven't put anything into my mouth without knowing the consequences of my actions and really making a consious decision to eat that food. Yesterday I didn't eat just one, but three of those tiny treats with no thought to carbs or how it would affect my day. I seemed to have it in my head that it was so small, it can't be more than 10 carbs...I can live with that. Not a path my brain should be on. I know for a fact this will lead me astray. It will become too easy to take that attitude for things all through-out the day. Next thing I know I'll be right back where I started. Today I tried to be very aware of what I was having. I made sure that the only thing I put into my mouth was "plan-approved". I was even able to resist birthday cake!

Most likely tomorrow will be just as crazy, so I made sure to pack everything I need for a full day at work just as soon as I got home tonight. No excuses. I'm sure a measure of my success is directly related to being prepared the night before. I don't have a reason to let myself get too hungry, I don't have a reason to eat something that isn't on my plan and it's hard to ignore water when it's staring at you all day long.

Up to this point, I've failed to mention the positive affects to my body. I know I talk about my weight and whether or not I stayed on plan, but sometimes that just isn't enough. I wore a pair of size 14 pants today and was excited to see that they fit. No, not tight. They fit like they should. I could also tell when looking in the mirror that my waist is shrinking and my stomach is looking flatter. These are little victories that are so important. When the scale isn't moving in the direction you want it to, sometimes all you need is a little boost to your confidence. Amazing how clothes can do it so easily. Clothes allow our minds to see how our body is changing for the better. I've scheduled a pick up with ARC for household items and clothes. I plan on sorting thru my closet prior to pick up and I hope to clear out anything that has gotten too big. There is no going back for me. Only forward.