Consequences

Last night I was left with one burning question. How would my choices yesterday affect my weight today? Well as crazy as it might sound I actually gained 2.2 pounds. Now, I know for a fact that I didn't eat 2.2 pounds of food yesterday. I'm contributing the majority of it to water weight. Never-the-less I will not be indulging again for a very long time. 2.2 pounds? That is so crazy. And from eating a serving of nachos (without sour cream I might add) and some chips and salsa. There is a saying that I've heard many times and never really related to until today. "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels." I finally get it. Those nachos did not taste good enough to justify 2.2 pounds.

When I first got up this morning and weighed myself I wasn't going to write it down. I decided that I could go back to bed and when I woke up I would weigh again and find that I'd somehow miraculously lost weight. Before I even left the room I had written my weight down. I knew when I was eating yesterday that I would need to deal with the fall out today. So, like a big girl I wrote those numbers. It was harder than I thought it would be. Today I've been extra diligent. I had seven servings of protein (105 grams), drank all of my water, took my suppliments and had zero carbs. I ate Jello today. I was lucky to get all of my servings in. I found myself eating the last one at 9:30 this evening.

All in all today was a good day. I'm excited to see how I do tomorrow. I'm hoping to see a loss, even if it's a minimal one. I'd like to think that today was a test and I passed it. I didn't freak out and go on an eating binge like I have in the past. I also didn't deny what was staring me in the face. Both of those are habitual for me when in comes to trying to lose weight. I no longer want to give in when it gets hard (either staying on plan or if I don't have a loss). I want to stick with it. Be my own success story. I'm on the right path. I'm finally admitting my weaknesses and confronting them. I imagine I have some additional and possibly more difficult challenges ahead of me. Every victory gives me more strengh, will power and love of myself to keep pushing through. I know I can do this.